Closing Year

To sum it up
I can't feel I'm on top
I know it has been a blast
But somehow I feel dead last

I got what I wished for
A career completed, down to the core
How come I'm still empty
How can I be completely happy

Why do I have to take this test
Is this the way to pour out my best?
I guess I need to proceed
Move forward and then succeed

The year's coming to an end
Still, there are things I can't mend
Shall I leave it be?
I guess I should first fix me.

Queenless

I cant fight
I'm losing my might
It seemed hopeless
Because of my carelessness

Lost almost all of my pieces
All of my moves, misses
How can this be?
This is unbecoming of me

I have to pick myself up
And slowly climb back to the top
But for now I ask
How to overcome this task

How can I build a castle
When I am caught in a puzzle
Oh where have you been
I'm looking for you, my Queen

Expressionless

We all have a facade
This makes others sad
But we have to handle it
Or we might be beat

You just did not see
There's still a lot in me
You haven't read it well
I have so much to tell

Time was cut short
Everything was put to halt
You chose to leave
Making me bereave

You should know I'm not expressive
And I am so passive
But it doesn't mean I'm untrue
'cause I so love you

Walking Forward

Getting stuck
That's such a bad luck
Left hanging
Or you're just waiting

Opportunities will be lost
And life will be in toast
Are you really willing?
To kill that feeling

That's nowhere grand
Not able to stand
Get up and fight
And see the light

Felt like I'm in a no-doors ward
Trapped, it's so hard
The pieces are truly in shard
But its time to move forward.

Meaningless Time

How should I put this
Let's just say everything's amiss
Nothing is the same
Its all lame

Everything was once great
I have so much faith
Then it went sour
At an untimely hour

Hoping for a fix
Somehow, I'm in a jinx
It seemed hopeless
Everything went meaningless

If only I could see what's ahead
Things will not be misled
And for all the spent time
Now your just not mine

Swords

Lies, I hate
Puts everything to waste
Focus gets lost
What a great cost

Losing touch
Do you like it that much?
Seeing me so down
That I almost drown

What did you think
To cut off such link
You are oh so willing
To leave me in this feeling

It felt like dying
Caused by all the lying
Hurt by the words
Pierced like a thousand swords

Twisted Fate

It was that day
That gave me such dismay
I thought I was happy
But then it turned gloomy

What have I done
For me not to have fun
I made 2 people smile
That could last for more that awhile

The pain I felt
It truly made me melt
Just like a knife
Ending another life

Such cruel twist of fate
To see you on that date
Clinging with your new someone
Oh how sad I become

What's Ahead

I am not so sure
If there's still a cure
To see you when you're down
How can I prevent that frown?

Life is a cycle
Happiness, sadness may drizzle
But we still can choose
On which emotion to use

We have to realize
To learn how to neutralize
Our mixed feelings
For the new beginnings

And thus, something came up
And there's no way to stop
For every move I make
The future is at stake

Wait

In this world
No one has the best hold
You say, "This is it"
Just wait for the blind hit

That's what I learned
Which I never yearned
As such was my fate
And I can never hate

Now I must proceed
And I have to succeed
I now have a new pact
On which I have to act

I am now waiting
For someone worth keeping
Not just any person
She and I must be in unison

The Trip

Leaving for a different place
I hope I can be at pace
The days are getting short
And you just can't abort

The separation will be sad
But I know it is not that bad
It will only be for a moment
And it will flow back like a current

Everything is a mess
And you're feeling in distress
Bothered by your departure
But I know one thing for sure

You are going far away
And I can't make you stay
Just have a safe trip
When you're back, don't forget the gift

Regression

Good things never last
Everything is now in the past
It was once so great
But now it just dissipate

The connection that once we had
It snapped and then went bad
How it happened?
I don't know, can't comprehend

The past, I have no regret
It was fun, can't forget
And now things are getting clear
The thoughts, I have to say my dear:

That you are the star
I once adored from afar
But now everything changed
We separated and disengaged

On The Run

To be precise
Running is an exercise
It makes you sweat
And leaves no regret

Running makes you healthy
And sometimes make you really wealthy
It could make you emotionally and mentally strong
Which could be helpful when things go wrong

Running and life are the same
Sometimes great, sometimes its a shame
They both have lessons to teach
Now I am sharing one and put it at reach

It is better to run
Than to think not having fun
It is better to run away
Than staying blue and gray

Vows

I don't get it a bit
To make promises and break it
Making hope-filled lines
Which put you in blinds

In a relationship, this is a must
There should be faith, love and trust
For an absence of one
Everything will be gone

I have to reassess
What do I lack and need to possess
I need to get this done
Before I move on the next one

This is my vow
And failure, I will not allow
On my next attachment
I surely will lock it under engagement

Parting Shot

To have guts
You should eliminate the buts
If you'll take the risk
You should not be in a brisk

Compose yourself and meditate
Focus and concentrate
Remove the doubt
Think about your bout

Breathe in, breathe out
Make this your shoutout
And now that you're prepared
Let it be declared:

That this one I say to you
Is the most important thing I will do
I will take this last shot
And I surely will hit the spot

Leaving

Separation...
This might lead to desperation
The distance between us might be great
But there's nothing I cant defeat

Patience...
This will be my penitence
I must be strong
For this wait will be oh so long

Surely the wait will be over
By then we will see each other
But for now, before you go
I just want you to know

That I will melt in your memories
And soon you will forget all our stories
But nevertheless...
The experience was the best of the best

Checkmate

This is a great game
Which could put people to fame
Learned it when I was going to Grade 3
I never knew how it would be

Taught me to think
Even when I am in brink
This made me realize
That it is a bit hard to materialize

Sacrificing the KING for another KING
I would not do such a thing
I would never sacrifice my QUEEN
If and only if, the next move is a win

In using my final pieces
I wish my move connects and never misses
I hope it is not too late
For you to see my move, my checkmate!

Deceptive Move

How can I understand
You never declared your demand
You where the one who set the rule
Now you made me look like a fool

I am no psychic
And now you wish me to do a hat trick?
You left me afloat
My thoughts are now in halt

The way I got disconnected
I really can't ignore it
The move was long and tedious
That took away my beloved, precious

This crushing pain
Please cover me in rain
Because I want to cry
And release a very big sigh

The Art

Oh how beautiful your art
Your really good on that part
I really don't understand
Why did you leave my hand?

You where to be my future
But with your departure
You left me in horror
Too much pain and torture

It's like stroke
It just came and broke
I am disappearing in presence
And left me with a lot of questions

Where shall I start
On the part where you depart?
Or on your creative art
On how to break a heart?

Zombie-Like

How did this happened?
I have your promise to depend
Why haven't you said a thing?
You could have just ping

Things are now messy
Which made me truly dizzy
For I am thinking of a solution
Of this darn situation

How I wish I could repair
I really am in despair
How can I just act
When the following is the fact:

That you ripped me apart
That you just broke my heart
That now I have no place to be
That I'm feeling like a zombie

Blue

The sadness that I am feeling now
I hope that will not make me bow
I have so much pride
That I don't want to hide

To love you
Is so easy to do
Just be beside me
That surely will make me glee

But things happened so fast
That now I am only part of your past
I hope it could last
But everything is now in cast

Why did you choose to hurt me?
Are you blind, can't see?
I am the one who loves you
But now you made me blue.

Hard To Let Go

Loving is such a pain
When things go in vain
The pain will start
When the other one tries to depart

I tried to make her stay
But each attempt makes her go away
Now I am in grief
For it has broken all my belief

Confusion, pain will linger
And it is one bad stinger
I am thinking of setting her free
But that will not make me glee

How can I ever let you go
I love you even so
What do you want me to do
I am still not over you

Disoriented

I never thought this would happen
That is why I am so saddened
For me to experience this
I will never be put to ease

To think for the fact
That everything was so intact
Then suddenly out of nowhere
Here comes the destroyer

Chewed the castle I built
Until its foundation was in tilt
Devoured my world
And left me with nothing to hold

I guess I will put it to fate
If I where to die on this date
And no one will seem to hate
For me to lose in such a state

Hurt

Ouch! an expression
That gives a person the notion
To be in alert
For a person is getting hurt

If a child i hurt,
It just cries away the pain
And then leaves the hurt to heal
And forgets all about it

But if a grown man is hurt,
It may cry the pain away
And then lets it heal
But will truly remember the scar as it heals

How I wish I was a child
To cry away that hurt as it gets mild
To leave the hurt as it is
And be free as it heals

Resurrection

Being down and lonely is not a bad thing
It just means that we are humans
Able to feel and be hurt
And makes us grounded from time to time

It just means that if you go up so high
You have to take a good look at the path
If there are hindrances along the way
And if you falter and fall, stand up and dust yourself off

Arise and stand tall
For the game has only started
Just like a phoenix that rises from its own ashes.

My Wings

I have once grown a pair of wings
It has grown so big like that of the kings
It has a lot of power
To climb the highest tower

The wings was tempered by love
That was given from up above
Then one day it got clipped
I was shocked and almost flipped

I tried to repair and mend it
But to fix it was a bit intricate
Then I soon realize that I have to cut the other wing
And take the challenge of what life could bring

Now I lost it all
And just let life roll
I found out life is not that bad
To have no wings and all, you can still be glad

The Psychiatrist

There was this psychiatrist
Who seems to know everything
The psychiatrist comments on relational issues
The psychiatrist has commented on break-ups and separations

The psychiatrist wondered how will it feel
To be the one at the bad end of the reel
The psychiatrist does not know and understand
For the psychiatrist is so madly, deeply in love

Then one day it suddenly came
The psychiatrist is now broken
And the wish is to blame
The psychiatrist said so this is how it feels

Distorted, lost, pain, sorrow
Distracted, floating, wondering, sad
The emotions almost took the psychiatrist
But the psychiatrist thought I must go on

And now, how I wish the psychiatrist could see
To see that I am not in glee
How I wish the psychiatrist could hear my plea
And fix the broken pieces of me

Uneasiness

By night, sleepless
By day, restless
Wants to be busy
To forget something easily

Buys a drink
To get drunk
When the hang over comes,
Another problem arises

It is so difficult to focus
When your bothered and conscious
So difficult to think
When the pen is out of ink

And now I tell everyone
This is the most difficult thing I have ever done
To look calm and easy
When everything inside of you is uneasy

Complications

Complications may arise
Even in the best of us
It is up to us to make a resolve
To tinker an idea to make the world revolve

Complications comes in sizes
Big, small, huge or great
But in every problem
There will always be a weak spot

Take a good aim at that spot
Puncture it, until it is in maim
Little by little, a light will appear
Like a horse running from the rear

The complication that seemed so great
Will suddenly disappear and disintegrate
When all the solving modules
Comes and makes it grand parade.

Friend

I have this friend
Who's there even when times end
This friend helps me forget
Those things that made me regret

When I am down and lonely
This friend comes and consoles me
Gives thoughts, ideas and advises
So that everything in me normalizes

And now I wonder
I think and ponder
That I should not waste any time
To make this special friend mine

Sayonara

This is a farewell to a past
A past, that I wish could have last
For everything has just ended
And there are things that have not mended

How I wish I could go back
'Coz I don't want to see you pack
How I wish I could see things ahead of time
I could have evaded this and made you still mine

But the lessons from the past
That my friend will surely last
With everything said and done
A new life has just begun

loneliness

i am writing this poem for the one i loved
but my beloved has another one on her arms
that made me break down and made me think twice
to try to court her or not
but my heart says me to pursue,
making it harder to do
so i try to stop but it wont stop
but until then i will try to conceal the pain
to let them have there happy life of there own
leaving me grieving here alone...